God called. And, man, did He call.
This phrase, “Break My Heart for What Breaks Yours,” started showing up in my life. A Lot. God was moving in my heart. He knew His plans. He orchestrated experiences and moments and He led me to be broken- for Him.
I sang in worship to Him on Sunday mornings and I cried, hard. My poor husband probably thought I was losing my mind. I read devotionals, and I cried. I watched videos about starving children ,and I cried. I listened to testimonies about aborted babies, and I cried. I read about addicted people, and I cried. People, I cried A LOT. I’m still crying a lot. My heart is breaking for Him and the things that break His heart.
And, then, He called me to move. Pastor Phil started a sermon series that JUST SO HAPPENED to coincide with my call to move and to serve (does anyone else see the humor in that statement?!).
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So, we prayed. We discussed. We pondered. We crunched numbers.
Then, one day, these sweet little loves from South Africa popped up on the sermon announcements. My heart knew. Adam’s heart… well, that took a little time because the letters H-I-V are scary when you put them all together and combine it with the unknown. But, after an informational meeting and lots of prayer and some hard-felt obedience to God (and, maybe, some LOVE for his crazy wife) my rugged husband said to me, “If you want South Africa, I’m in.”
My dear love, he had no idea how little I truly wanted South Africa but God, HE wants South Africa. You see, South Africa is scary because there are lots of sad, scary feelings to be had in an orphanage in a country where 7 million people are HIV positive. My mommy heart is SO broken SO often. But, God called. And, he called, and called, and called. So, I stand in obedience to the One.
In August, July 31st actually, Adam and I will leave with a team from our church to serve at an orphanage with children whose parents were affected by the AIDs pandemic in South Africa. We humbly ask for your prayers as we navigate through this preparation process and for us to continue to be in God’s will in all that we do.
Our hearts are broken for God- for what breaks God’s heart. We pray your hearts will be broken for the same. ❤
“For David…served the purpose of God in his own generation.” Acts 13:36
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